Oops... Day 2 & 3

So I never promised that I would be perfect at posting every day.
This probably won't be the only time that days are together! ;)

That being said... here is day 2 & 3.

2- My boys...

They are my life. I honestly wouldn't be the same without them.
Jon and I have been through so much and our relationship is stronger than ever.
JT is cRaZy... but I can't imagine my life without him.
He is the most amazing little man ever!!!

3- My parents...

If you don't know my parents... you are missing out!
They are the most amazing people in the world.
The best parents that anyone could have!!!!!
It is mainly because of my parents that JT is in our lives.
I am so so so grateful for everything that they do...
and they do whatever they can for all of us kids.

I love you mom and dad!!!!!

Give Thanks...

November is National Adoption month, but it is also Thanksgiving. So for the month of November I am going to post every day something that I am thankful for.

Day #1

I am so thankful for Halloween! Not really the holiday, but being able to share it with my sweet little man! There is nothing better than hearing a sweet "Trick or Treat" when you have waited FOREVER to experience it.

What really matters.

This past week was rough. I am now at a spot in life where I really have to sit and decide what is most important. After some sad news I was angry, upset, and just plain sad. I said a few things that shouldn't have been said and I murmured. I am far from perfect and this week has proved that. The one thing that kept me grounded is the love of the Lord. It never ceases to amaze me that in the middle of a heartbreak or trial, when all hope seems to be gone, HE is right there. No matter what! Even though I know this, it is so easy to forget. The morning after the news I opened up my email to find this video from Hilary Weeks.

It was exactly what I needed to hear and I felt so much LOVE while listening that everything just seemed to go away. Jon and I have done a lot of talking and things will be changing in our family.

What really matters is that we are happy. That JT is happy. As of right now there has been way too much stress and we need a break from it all. I am looking forward to the new year, but I am also looking forward to spending the next 2 months with my boys.

No distractions! No worries! No stress!

Love

I am so blessed to be JT's mom!!

Grief

Grief is a funny thing. Just when you think you are doing ok, it sneaks up and encompasses you. I have sat down to write this post a million times, but my words are failing me. So instead of writing a novel of stuff that doesn't make any sense... here is a quote that has stayed in my head since the baby passed away.

"Sometimes God pushes us to our limits. It's because He has greater faith in us than we have in ourselves."

I have been so fortunate to have such amazing family and friends during the hard times in my life. You all know who you are! I can not thank you enough. One of these days we will understand why we have to go through trials and pain. Until then, hold on tight, it's a bumpy ride!

Can you believe it?!?!

My baby started preschool!

Is he really old enough?
He is spelling colors.
Writing numbers.
Matching shapes with objects.

JT actually stood still while the flag went by!
We survived the "candy" parade at Peach Days

Jon and I turned one year older!
We enjoyed spending Labor day on Kolob!

JT has the most fun when we visit Uncle Kyle!

We were in attendance at a pretty "ugly" BYU game!

JT wasn't quite sure of the horse at Grandma & Grandpa's house at first.

He soon became "best friends" with it!

I can't believe I haven't shared all of the fun we have had the
past few months. I am now pretty much caught up!

So in Love...

My life has changed so much in the last few weeks.

I went from stressed out to sad to feeling so peaceful.

Today I laid down with this precious little boy.

He fell asleep on my chest.

At that moment the only thing that went through my mind was if he was the only child I ever had on this earth... it would be ok!

He is definitely a 4 year old.

A stinkin cute one at that.

He knows just what buttons to push to make me frustrated.

But he also knows exactly what to do to make me smile.

His hugs and kisses brighten my day.

His smile lights up any room that he enters

He is a miracle and He is my son!

I am so in Love with him... more and more everyday!