What really matters.

This past week was rough. I am now at a spot in life where I really have to sit and decide what is most important. After some sad news I was angry, upset, and just plain sad. I said a few things that shouldn't have been said and I murmured. I am far from perfect and this week has proved that. The one thing that kept me grounded is the love of the Lord. It never ceases to amaze me that in the middle of a heartbreak or trial, when all hope seems to be gone, HE is right there. No matter what! Even though I know this, it is so easy to forget. The morning after the news I opened up my email to find this video from Hilary Weeks.

It was exactly what I needed to hear and I felt so much LOVE while listening that everything just seemed to go away. Jon and I have done a lot of talking and things will be changing in our family.

What really matters is that we are happy. That JT is happy. As of right now there has been way too much stress and we need a break from it all. I am looking forward to the new year, but I am also looking forward to spending the next 2 months with my boys.

No distractions! No worries! No stress!

Love

I am so blessed to be JT's mom!!

Grief

Grief is a funny thing. Just when you think you are doing ok, it sneaks up and encompasses you. I have sat down to write this post a million times, but my words are failing me. So instead of writing a novel of stuff that doesn't make any sense... here is a quote that has stayed in my head since the baby passed away.

"Sometimes God pushes us to our limits. It's because He has greater faith in us than we have in ourselves."

I have been so fortunate to have such amazing family and friends during the hard times in my life. You all know who you are! I can not thank you enough. One of these days we will understand why we have to go through trials and pain. Until then, hold on tight, it's a bumpy ride!