Wednesday, March 30, 2011
My second pet peeve about adoption is the money. It just really gets to me when I see these adoption situations out there in the range of 30k - 40k. Are you kidding me? There are some of us families that don't have that kind of money just sitting around. To me it is getting to be more of a baby selling market which makes me so sad. There is an agency that I know of that charges more for a "white" baby than an AA baby. Which seriously pisses me off. Talk about taking advantage of us Adoptive Parents. It isn't like we don't already have enough stress and heartache on our plates... how about we just pile on another problem... You don't have the money... you don't get a baby. I am grateful for LDSFS and I know that if you are patient than things will happen. It is that patient part... I have posted about it before. It isn't my strongest point.
All I want is for JT to have a sibling to play with. It makes me sad when he is talking to his imaginary cousins (who live in Colorado). I am worried that we will wait so long that I just won't be able to wait anymore and just give up. That isn't fair to Jon or JT, but how long can a person wait? Is it too much to ask to just get a break every now and then? We are a happy family. We love each other. We adore JT and just want another child to adore! I will go as far as I can in this adoption process. Believe me I am sure many of you are tired of seeing our profile on facebook. There is someone out there for our family. I am excited to find our birthfamily. Please help me to be more patient and forget about the pain and heartache as we go through this process. And please be patient with me while I am a crazy person as I "advertise" for our little family.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
In other news, look at these cute kids!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Tired of not being with my little man all day.
Tired of school.
But mostly... tired of waiting!
Today is my down day.
I don't have them as often as I used to.
For those of you who think I have a great attitude... Thank you.
This just goes to show I am not perfect.
I am grateful that the Lord let's us have bad days once in awhile.
On bad days my arms feel empty and ache.
My brain won't shut off.
I think all day about our next baby.
Where is our birth mother?
How is she doing?
Will we hear anything soon?
When will we be chosen?
These days bring me to my knees.
Please help me get through this day.
Pleading to take it all away.
So today... I cry, but tomorrow I will be back to me... hopefully! ;0)
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
How many times can you say that you are thankful for your trials? I know the first 11 years of our marriage I definitely wasn't thankful for mine. I seriously couldn't understand why I had to go through what I did, but now... I wouldn't take any of it back. I have the most amazing son. He is a handful and he definitely tries my patience most days, but it is the hugs and kisses and sweet "I love you's" that reminds me just how precious being a mother can be. As I drove to work this morning I changed the radio station came to a Christian music station. I have never listened to this station in my life, but the song that was beginning to play sounded cool so I listened. It was exactly what I needed to hear.
Because of my faith I am a better wife. I am a grateful mother who will have more children. I am a little less weak. I am still a human. I know I can't always pretend that everything in my life is perfect, but I will take my trials and grow from them.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Daddy left a pitcher of grape juice on the counter the other day. JT decided that the dogs would enjoy some of that tasty beverage! He plays so well with the dogs when they are inside for the night that I usually don't have to worry about him doing anything naughty. I even went into the kitchen a few times and didn't notice the purple liquid smeared across the floor. Shockingly enough... the dogs didn't care for the juice at all! Notice he even gave them their own cup. :/
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Look at this gummy bear!
We picked it up at the Sugar Factory in Vegas. JT loves it!
We were supposed to head up north on Sunday for the Jazz vs celtics game, but the weather was bad so we waited until Monday morning. It turned out to be a long day. We left at about 10 and got home at 3 AM!!! We had so much fun. JT had a blast, but we won't be taking him to another game for a few years. That is just too much time for a little one to stay still.
This kid just melts my heart!
JT's favorite part of the game... the blimp.