Tuesday, March 15, 2011

What Faith Can Do...

I am a wife. I am a mother that longs to have more children. I am weak. I am human. I can't always pretend that everything in my life is perfect. I have always questioned the Lord about our infertility. I never really understood the reason behind it. I can't even count how many blessings I have had that have said, "In the Lord's Time." Don't you think after being told that over and over I would finally get it? Well I now do! At times my patience has been worn so thin that I didn't think I would make it. My faith has been shaken. Remember my post a few weeks ago about Peace? Well that peace continues to be my constant companion and as I work towards my goal of having enough patience that "In the Lord's Time" is enough; my faith has been growing exponentially. I can't even begin to describe what the past month has been like. Yeah I have broke down a few times, but every time I fall I stay on my knees and talk to my Heavenly Father. He is the ONE that knows exactly what I am going through. He is the one that is allowing me to learn more Patience. He is the one that is helping my Faith become stronger. I finally get it and I am so thankful that I have this chance to grow not only as a wife and mother, but also as a Daughter of God.

How many times can you say that you are thankful for your trials? I know the first 11 years of our marriage I definitely wasn't thankful for mine. I seriously couldn't understand why I had to go through what I did, but now... I wouldn't take any of it back. I have the most amazing son. He is a handful and he definitely tries my patience most days, but it is the hugs and kisses and sweet "I love you's" that reminds me just how precious being a mother can be. As I drove to work this morning I changed the radio station came to a Christian music station. I have never listened to this station in my life, but the song that was beginning to play sounded cool so I listened. It was exactly what I needed to hear.

Because of my faith I am a better wife. I am a grateful mother who will have more children. I am a little less weak. I am still a human. I know I can't always pretend that everything in my life is perfect, but I will take my trials and grow from them.

1 comment:

Honor said...

thanks for sharing these thoughts!