Thursday, February 10, 2011

Peace

I sit here at work. It is payday. I have filing to do and stacks of paperwork to go through, but I am here. The past week I have reflected on my life. Counted my blessings. Enjoyed the miracle that JT is. I have reached out to birth mothers who are making the most difficult decision of their lives. Been support to other parents hoping to adopt. I have tried to not focus on the negative in my life. Yeah I am not perfect and Jon can attest that I still have my rough days. I have truly made a conscious effort to remain positive. I have placed my life in the Lord's hands to do what he will with it. I have prayed for our birth mother and child wherever they are to be comforted and blessed. I have searched for the peace that I need to make it through this roller coaster journey. TODAY I received that peace. It wasn't in the comfort of my bedroom or sitting at church. I am in an office with the bathroom fan running in the background. I am surrounded by the reminder that I really should get to work.

I found a website that had 3 quotes that were just what I needed to hear.

At the end of the day, it's up to us to choose whether to focus on what tears us apart or holds us together

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past ~ stop planning the future ~ stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel ~ stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel ~ Sometimes we just have to go with "Whatever happens- happens"

Some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.

After I read these quotes I was filled with the most warm comforting peaceful feeling. I KNOW that the Lord has my best interests at heart. He wouldn't put me through something if it wasn't for my good. My job is to learn from it and use it to help others.

I am so grateful for JT's birth mother. It is truly a miracle that he found us despite her best efforts to sabotage it. Miracle #1- She went in to have an abortion only to find out she was a few days too late. Miracle #2- She only wanted a African American couple for her baby. Obviously we are white. I am so thankful that the Lord protected JT. I can't imagine our life without him. I still will have my rough days I am sure, but I have been searching and praying for Peace and now that I have it I will NEVER let it go

5 comments:

Dj,Megs,Trey,Pace said...

Those were great quotes. Even to me who is obviously not adopting, put me at ease and we all need to be greatful for what we have. I am so thankful to have a awesome sister like you and have always looked up to you. I love you! I know that your baby is out there waiting for you.

Robin Sant said...

You are awesome Bridget. I love the comments you posted, I hope that soon your baby will find you. It is such a stressful time waiting for something you want so bad and have no control over. You are such a good mommy to JT. Thank you for sharing those great quotes to remind the rest of us.

Grandma Linie said...

I love those quotes. They are great for life. I really love the second one. I am so sorry you have to keep waiting. That is the toughest thing to do. But it is awesome to recognize the miracles and blessings in our lives. I call my kids my miracle babies. They were meant just for me and when I look back at how they came to my family it truly is a miracle how we got each one. Keep being positive. It can help make any situation better finding the good things around you. Thinking of you.

Grandma Linie said...

okay, I am on my mom's computer. But the previous comment is from me. :)

April

Jen said...

Those are such lovely thoughts. Thanks for sharing.